You have what it takes.
“If people bring so much courage to this world, the world has to kill them to break them, so of course it kills them. The world breaks every one and afterward many are strong at the broken places. But those that will not break, it kills. It kills the very good and the very gentle and the very brave impartially. If you are none of these you can be sure it will kill you too but there will be no special hurry.”
― Ernest Hemingway, A Farewell to Arms
If you’re one of the very good ones, the world will break you. Not because you’ve done anything wrong, but because you’re ready to face a choice, to take responsibility for circumstances that were never your fault, to grow up. You’re ready to say, it may be messy, but I got this.
I got this.
Whether you break into a million pieces and die, or heal instead as a stronger person depends on you coming to terms with this simple thing.
Whatever you think is right today, you’ll see was wrong tomorrow. You know nothing.
Your job is to become humble again. Your job is to figure out how you’re wrong, not right, everyday and do things differently bit by bit. I know it’s the opposite of “positive thinking.”
I bought into the school of “positive thinking” and it made me a jerk. I was convinced I was right everyday for twenty years.
When I was little, I thought my dad was king. I thought I would fall in love with one person and live happily ever after.
I also had no idea that something called ‘gravity’ kept me from floating away from the earth. I thought chicken tenders were gourmet. I thought orange juice only came out of a frozen can with a sucking noise and needed to be mixed with water. I believed that our local lake, Lake Arrowhead, was the biggest lake in the United States until my friend Nick told me it was a puddle compared to the Great Lakes.
I was smart, but I knew nothing.
The good ones are ready to surrender their beliefs. The good ones are willing to say, fuck it, maybe she’s right. Maybe I don’t know why she feels the way she does, but I choose to take responsibility for figuring it out. Maybe it’s something I did. Maybe not. If you’re ready to feel stupid again, because we all are, it’s okay. You’re wearing big girl pants.
The good ones are willing to take the punch, fall down, and get back up better than ever, but never the same.
They get back up a little smarter every time.
If you’re like everyone you know, you’re barely keeping it together.
You’re driving yourself crazy, living a life of regrets. Seeing the fault in others and feeling angry that you didn’t get what you deserve. Especially in your financial life.
Let go of what went wrong yesterday. Give yourself a break. After all, you didn’t know better. Forget about tomorrow too. You don’t want to build tomorrow the same way you used to build tomorrows. Stop, and just break.
Accept that you know nothing. It frees you up to figure things out again. Life was never meant to be a grand plan gone your way.
A quality life is made up of an endless string of small improvements. A series of choices you can make differently.
So, What Are You Willing To Be Humble About?
In other words, what are you willing to feel dumb about? Your relationship, your finances, or your health? Whatever you’re willing to make yourself humble for is bound to improve.
Constant learners innately assume they’re dumb about nearly everything.
There are only two ways to live: you can live as if nothing is a miracle; you can live as if everything is a miracle. — Albert Einstein
If you’re ready, feel free to drop your personal agenda for how you approach the insistent problems in your life. You can allow for discovery again. You can live outside of your own expectations and allows others to as well. You can make learning your primary responsibility.
The good ones take responsibility for their life no matter how crappy their circumstances. They don’t spend their time or energy passing blame.
Your story isn’t over yet. You still have time to place your bets.
Some ideas on placing better bets
Here are a few examples of higher quality choices, in no particular order.
Instead of… honking your horn because you’re still angry that someone cut you off last year, you change lanes.
Instead of… justifying why you should date someone who cheats on you, you leave.
Instead of… lying to yourself about why you’re in your financial situation, you decide to make a realistic plan to get out.
Instead of… being your mother on bad days and putting her problems on everyone else, you figure out how to soothe yourself in more productive ways.
Are you ready to break and re-make yourself?
I help people fix their money problems, so let’s talk about money and what breaking looks like in that arena.
You accept that you can’t make next month’s rent because you’ve spent all of your money on crap. Even if it’s painful for a while, you sit with your shame and decide to change paths.
You realize you can’t have it all. You make new trade-off choices regarding what you value most, and what you need to give up.
You tip your driver or your server generously instead of financially supporting companies who make the world a shittier place. You know the ones. If you don’t, do a little research. You take responsibility for the power of your money.
You take a step back from your clingy financial habits and see how you may have attached poor values and meaning to money, and how you can make your story different with a shift in beliefs and habits. Then you do something about it.
This is how we break. Stop holding your old self together.
Bad shit happens to good people all the time. The question is, what will you do after?
Will you blame others for your circumstances, for your crappy financial situation? If so, you’re living in the past. Blame and responsibility are on opposite sides of the spectrum.
Instead, consider letting yourself be vulnerable and responsible for what you do next. Choose to make your pain constructive. You can choose to break and mend rather than run, hide, or become insecure.
The good ones seek and eventually find something they care about more than themselves, so breaking becomes part of their growth.
Maybe you’re tired of making no progress. It’s okay, you can pick yourself up right now and figure out a different way.
Everyone has things they wish hadn’t happened. We gave ourselves to a guy or girl and ended up hurt. We tried a career that didn’t fit. We took a financial risk only to have it explode in our face or die a slow death. The good ones rebuild, you see.
You still have time to place your bets. You can start over.
Make it count.
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